Many know I found a dance class for kids with special needs and yesterday was Kendall's first class. First off, the class, teacher and other students were wonderful and friendly. Kendall really liked the class a lot, I think mostly because the music was good and there were props(who doesn't love props??!!) She got to spend most of the class in a princess dress carrying a fancy fan. It was quite cute and the best part was that no one cares what she can or can't do in the class. There is no pressure which is great. However, it was a mixed bag of emotions for me. It is COMPLETELY heart breaking to watch your child not be able to do so many of the things that others kids can do, even in this dance class. It's even more heart breaking that I can't fix it. So it makes me really sad. Parenting Kendall is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, it can be really hard on the heart. It's also the most wonderful thing I've ever done because it's taught me so much and because she is so amazing. Most importantly, there is so much she can do and I would say her "free style" dance is just the best ever. It takes the sadness away because you can't be sad watching it. She's so happy that it just projects on to me(and Dan too). So right when I was battling with this pit in my stomach during the class, this happened and all was right in my little world again...
Because of that, we'll keep going back and she'll learn and grow as will I. Our journey in life together will continue on as always. She'll make me a stronger, better mom because clearly she knows how to enjoy life, a little lesson everyone can learn from her!
Finally, a little side note. Chasey turned 5 this past Sunday. It was his golden birthday. I can't believe that he is 5. He's pretty great and he even asked me yesterday "Mommy, was Kendall able to do all the dance moves?". I said "no she wasn't but she had a good time anyway." His response, "with practice she'll get better, right mommy?". That boy loves his sister. They are really close. He then told me he'd like to do dance class with Kendall. So sweet! Anyway, a lot of people have seen the video I made for his birthday but I'm putting it here as well:
https://vimeo.com/81291436
